The Brave Dreamer Journey!

Dear Brave Dreamer,

I loooove a good long hot shower!!! Yep! I could sit under the fall of warm water as it washes over my face and skin, washing away with it any emotions from the day, the grit and grim that resides, any remembrance of the trials and battles that were journeyed through in the moments before the tap was turned on and the water was released… Gosh! I LOVE a good hot shower!!!
Tonight however… I found myself soaking my heart happy in a deliciously warm bath! I had bought some beautiful ‘Heal the Soul’ bath salts recently on a weekend away that were not only ascetically pleasing to look at, but soaking in a bath surrounded by little white flowers, lavender pieces and allll the good salts… well… heavenly much!
Tonight though… it was tricky! Not the sit and soak and let your body be pampered by the goodness bit… but the ‘sit still and be’… THAT… I found tricky!
There is something about the motion of water washing over and down your skin in a shower that somehow feels like it signifies a ‘letting go and moving on’ kind of experience… whilst sitting and soaking in a bath… within the stillness of it all… kinda leaves you facing the depth of thought and emotion embedded juuuust below the surface of your soaking skin… Tonight… I found this so daunting in the first moments of realizing the lack of distraction between me and my present ‘sit with yourself’ present moment.
Oh but why…

I have always had a knowing that if one can enjoy the stillness in a moment of the just ‘being’… this is a gooood thing! How often do we find ourselves these days, within this fast paced cultured world, running away from… ourselves! Not being able to sit still and be present with the depth and intensity of feeling we have going on on the inside… we would much rather ‘wash it away’, ‘work harder’, ‘run faster’ in any direction that keeps us from paying attention to what is right. there. within. us…

Feeling emotions can suck. Absolutely! I’m a deep feeler… and ouch! It is so true that it is both a blessing and a burden..! Then add on top the constant reel of adventurous life… and BOOM! You got a fuuuulllllll emotions bucket!

Heres the thing… after 3 years of my body kicking butt and keeping me hidden and untouched… I had an uninvited visit from Covid for the first time end of last week. Argh. My first meeting with this strange thing… and while unpleasant, Im choosing to so celebrate how incredibly my body kicked in and has bounced back so quickly! Yew!!! Before its entrance, I had felt exhaustion slowly taking ground in my body and wasn’t too alarmed when the typical ‘burnout’ symptoms approached… and then… BAM! Short, sharp and ever so brutal for but a moment..! What I wasn’t anticipating… was the wave of ‘loneliness’ that coupled with it. THAT… was hardest to feel!
No hugs. Plans canceled. Friends not wanting to come close… There is no doubt that the pandemic has been a ‘lonely’ one..! I found myself using all the tools I had learnt from phycologists friends in order to wait out the wave… what a trip! There’s nothing quite like an abrupt interference from a show stopping illness to propel you into ‘stop and reflect’ mode.. Im not always a fan..!
You see… I thought that I had full confidence in ‘sitting with me’… and then… at bath time tonight, surrounded by pretty floating flowers and the smell of sweetness in my nostrils… but a heartbeat that struggled to be in the moment… I realized sitting with oneself is not always easy… but oh so powerful for the self love and care!!!

I feel like this year has been a massive ‘YOU walk through the Brave Dreamers program first’ kind of year for me… from dealing with the journey through surgeries, the day to day, finding Joy in the storms… I have had to really ‘walk the walk and believe the talk’ that my heart so desperately longs to share with the world… and I wouldn’t have it any other way!
After all… Brave looks and feels like something yeah..?

Brave Dreamers… take a bath! Enjoy it! Feel the warmth of the still waters on your skin as you become aware of the breath you are breathing… You! are in THIS moment now..! Enjoy it! xxx
A random encouragement I know… but I had to share!

Until next time…
Be You. Stay You. Love You!
xxx